I have written poetry as long as I can remember. I have poems saved in my computer that are dated all the way back to 2005 and binders full of writing predating that. Unfortunately as a child I never thought dating my work served a purpose so I have no idea how old it all is.
So it was to my great surprise that in college I was told I was doing it all wrong! I often wrote poems in one sitting with little to no editing. Apparently I was supposed to edit my poems for more than just clarity and punctuation. My poems focused on my emotional state while writing. WRONG! Poems are supposed to tell stories my professor chorused.
This led to one of the most frustrating writing experiences of my life. I sat down a wrote a poem for the class. My first draft is as follows:
Floors
Crashing down around are emotions I can't restrain
All that holds me up are barren floorboards beneath my feet
Bruised knees carry the memories of broken prayers
When my only comfort was the concrete floor
Where I threshed truth from the lies of life
Caught by the only constant in the world
The floor of objectified reality
Fingers pick idly at the splintered threads
While minds seek a place of empty peace
Shattered lives like broken vases land here
Amongst the decaying crumbs of last meals
Cold comfort fills the ever growing void
When the floor halts my spiraling descent
Hands press flat, muscles strive to find strength
With the steadying presence beneath my body
I push, I strain, I kneel, I rise, I stand!
When all thoughts were turned to chaos
And emotions ran like watercolor
The floor halted my tortuous descent
Provided the force to rise again
From all fours to knees to feet
Though oft forgotten and thankless
The floors of life inspire gratitude
That helps me to rise every time I fall
I thought: Awesome! Assignment finished! WRONG! Here are some excerpts of the critique, which I saved to this day for posterities sake. (And some vindictive desire to prove them wrong of course.)
"What works: The imagery is powerful...make[s] me pause to see the image and want to know how it fits into the poem. The verb choices make me pause as well
What doesn’t work: I struggle to see a coherent storyline that matches the powerful imagery and verb choices. I so want to experience the desperate actions, but I get lost because of the “floor of objectified reality,” because of the idle picking of splintered threads (and the idea that there were floorboards and then a concrete floor). I do not understand why “minds” are introduced into the poem. I also do not understand why “shattered lives” come in. The plurals of both of these throw me. I struggle with the cold comfort filling the growing void. I do not understand why the descent is spiraling.
What I want to have happen as a reader: I so want to witness this struggle on a wood floor where prayer has not sustained the individual. I think this can be achieved by tightening the narrative and providing clearer transitions. Below is an example of seeking more concise language that might help the storyline be clearer: Barren floorboards steady my bruised knees that witness broken prayers.
He then proceeded to tell me (the whole class actually) that our next assignment was to revise and edit our poem at least five times. Five freaking times. I tried, I really did. In the end I made a few minor changes in revision one. Then pushed around punctuation for edit two. For the rest I made changes just to change things and never really wanted to. So here is the fifth draft:
Floors
All that holds me up are barren floorboards beneath my feet.
Bruised knees carry the memories of broken prayers
when my only comfort was the concrete floor
where I threshed truth from the lies of life.
Caught by the only constant in the world
the floor of objectified reality.
Fingers pick idly at splintered threads
while minds seek a place of empty peace.
Shattered lives like broken vases land here
amongst the decaying crumbs of last meals.
Cold comfort fills the ever growing void
when the floor halts my spiraling descent.
Hands press flat. Muscles strive to find strength.
With the steadying presence beneath my body,
I push, I strain, I kneel, I rise, I stand!
When all thoughts were turned to chaos
and emotions ran like watercolor
the floor halted my tortuous descent,
provided the force to rise again.
So what did I learn through this process? I learned that my teacher has a very literal mind. Which surprised me considering they were teaching a poetry class. I also did some digging and found out that his specialty was editing and publishing NOT poetry. Suddenly his suggestions and advice made a lot more sense. His statement of "I so want to witness this struggle on a wood floor where prayer has not sustained the individual" was personal preference, not "objective reality" as I described in my poem.
This process reinforced that poems can mean different things to different people. My focus in poetry is emotion, symbolism and catharsis. His focus in poetry was storytelling. If I want to tell a story I write prose not poetry. If I want to share an emotional experience without the need of context I write poems.
As much as I would love to say my professor was a quack without any concept of how poetry works, that would be lying. We just focused on different goals and preferences in our art. As one of my favorite youtubers Shasha at
CasuallyComics says "Different strokes for different folks".
Let me know in the comments which version of the "Floors" you like better and why. I'd love to continue to discussion with you.
- Jacob H. Taylor